September 2015

AN APPLE
cannot be an orange
and an orange
cannot be an apple.
each must be true to itself.
an apple is an apple.
an orange is an orange.
this is clear.

but is it really?

all to often
over way too many years,
i have found
that i try to be
something other than myself.

what is inside me is who i am
and though i try from time to time
to be something other than what i am
this is the cause of my suffering.
inauthenticity to my self.

and more than that,
on the other side,
when i expect myself to be something i am not
it causes me pain.

when i get squeezed by life
expecting apple juice
and orange juice comes out
i judge myself for not being what i thought i was.

i am what i am.
no amount of wishing or wanting changes that simple fact.
why not just be me?
what an easy way to live life
and yet i choose this way
only some of the time.

it has taken courage to find myself
to stand vulnerable, open, unprotected.
it has moments of real pain
because i get hurt more easily.
that is why i cover up so often
and live inauthentically.

yet, i have no choice but to be vulnerable.
i watch as others assume
my vulnerability is weakness
make no mistake about it

my vulnerability is powerful. it is my strength.

when i no longer hide the orange inside
by trying to be an apple
what becomes possible?

how does the story i tell change?
what culture does my business create?
who do i attract to work with me? clients? employees?
how do i show up in my marriage? with my children.

when i no longer need to hide who i am,
what does that do to my self care?
my self love?
the magnetism i am able to generate?
the clarity of my message?

my authenticity is one of my core values.
is it ne of yours too?

does this make sense?
if so,
are you living an authentic life
if not, PM me,
it is time for us to work together
to tell your authentic story
to create your brand
to build your culture
to have an amazing relationship.

it’s time.
who’s ready to step up?

WHAT IF NOTHING WAS REAL?????
this is a question i am asking myself more and more and more.
(no, i am not doing drugs)

but i am looking clearly at my life
and what i see is a deeper realization of what i saw before.

what if, nothing is as it seemed.
what if in any situation,
the way i look at it
and the level of energy i bring to it
is what i see
not what is really there?

could it be possible
that there is no absolute reality
but rather only the meaning i give to that reality?
WOW
that changes everything
because what is, is only how i choose to see it.

think about it.
in every situation in life
there are barriers.
in our businesses, our relationships
our very sense of self.
there are limitations
some are real (at least for now)
but others just come from fear
and the feeling i have that i can’t do that
but some of these i will break through.

i see it all around me
barriers are broken,
a man goes to the moon,
another breaks the 4 minute mile
and soon, another will cure cancer
what is now, will not always be

but even on a more individual level
my barriers are being broken too.

do you see it too?
in business, in relationships, in self care, in going to the next level
limiting beliefs that keep me small,
assumptions about what would happen if . . . . . .
suddenly appear to hold less power.

a glimpse
a minute
i raise my vibration
and enter a new level of energy
what was so real before, no longer is.

so many contributors:
mas sajady healing
planetary shifts
sedona
ipec seven level of energy
tony robbins changing my state
yogananda, buddha,
great masters of the great religions
i feel them helping me.
meditation
prayer
transforming moments
raise my vibration
blast through barriers once unsurmountable
now manageable.

walls come down
brings some devastation,
but a new freedom emerges.

can you feel it?

things are not the way they seem.
does that make sense?

SILENTLY
in the midst of all noise
i say your name
over and over and over and over and over
again and again and again and again and again . . . .
i know you hear me
screaming quiet whispers
above all other sounds.

hear me
soothe sorrows
lessen pain
relieve worry
end suffering.

around the business table
the dinner table
the changing table
the table that is my altar
so many voices pray
why do so few seem to be heard.

i know you hear me
and yet i do not pray so that you will hear me
you know.
i pray that i might hear my own prayer
and in it’s frequency
be uplifted.

my words are only words
and the sweetest words can do good
they can change the course of a business
or the feeling in a room
or melt misunderstandings that were once real….

ahhhhhhh . . .
but prayer changes the one who changes
and in the end
my prayer is not to change others
but to change me.

THIS KEEPS COMING UP FOR ME
OVER AND OVER AND OVER AGAIN

surrender. let. go. release.
in the quiet of my meditation.
in the stillness of the early hours,
in the emptiness of having a good enough life.
i hear the same message over and over again.
surrender. let go. release.

i am carrying so much
that is no longer mine to carry.
i have gotten so used to holding it
that i have forgotten how to let go.

i am scared
and so even though i live life at a high level
for me, i know i am settling for good enough.
there is greatness here
underneath all this fear
that keeps me playing only good enough

it is time to let go of my need to control
and yet i am not even sure i know how.

open the grip i hold on life,
on my business,
on my love,
on my beliefs
on what i think i can and cannot do
on the need to continually punish myself with pain
and lack.

open my heart
my mind
my soul
to receive
that which is so much greater than i.

it is inside me
and yet i make pretend it is distant.
it is closer than the closest reality
it is not something foreign. it is the most familiar.
that which comes
when i let go
is me.

please tell me you know what i am saying . . . .
do you?